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Wouldn’t you like to be a mind reader?  How great to look at someone’s expression and know exactly what is going on in their head?  At least, I think with a baby, it would.  Another adult, well, that could lead to all kinds of problems, but a baby – it would make life so much easier if only we knew.  Tyler looks like “mommy, what ARE you doing?” might be going through his head. Or maybe, he’s thinking, Ahhhh, I feel SO good.


April 21, 2010 at 6:00 am 1 comment


You know those times that it’s just so good, you don’t care about anything else?  We have to have it, no matter the cost. Who cares when it’s that good?  Like that one glass of wine too many or the man we shouldn’t?  Some days, no matter if it’s your birthday or not, you just gotta throw caution to the wind and say…. Why not?  Tyler did.


April 14, 2010 at 5:39 am 2 comments


I had been home from work sick for a few days and was dealing with the guilt that my co workers had to work harder because of it.  The words in italics are what I call, divinely guided.  I can always tell the difference because my conscious thoughts are full of woulda, coulda, shoulda, but the inner wisdom/higher guidance ones are always comforting and loving.  They’re not hard on me like I am on myself.


You feel better today.  You took the time to give yourself what your body needed.  Your spirit followed suit.  It was refreshed with time out from your responsibilities. Being responsible is necessary, but looking at where that responsibility lies is another matter.  Too often we do not see beyond work and we loose site of ourselves.  We worry about the impact of our absence and we spend our weakened energy focused outside of ourselves.  We, means you, the collective human experience.  You loose sight of where the responsibility ultimately lies.  Of course you know the answer now.  The task is to learn it well and remember in times of illness or adversity that the responsibility lies within.  Without the time taken to repair and renew, the effects of your outward efforts are lessened.  Productivity and quality are lost and honor, above all, is lacking.  To nurture you as one worthy of ultimate care, free of guilt is honoring yourself.  The guilt arises only if we let it in as a response to others who place their honor and care above your own.  You alone are responsible for recognizing your need and paying homage to it.  Your need yesterday and today is to get physically well.  We are giving you the information to recognize the value of that above all else, for this is your true mission, this is the mission for all of humanity; to recognize their individual needs- those that honor their spirit and then caring for it with loving intention.

April 12, 2010 at 1:49 am Leave a comment


Sometimes it just isn’t easy. Lexi looks like she was having a pretty bad morning. I know the feeling – sometimes  getting out of bed feels as bad as a root canal.

One of the worst, is having to get up and face a pile of bills?  Now here is something most of us have a legitimate gripe about. Whether we have money for them or not, parting with what we have can be so very painful.  How often do we scratch our heads at how much everything costs?  Or we wonder how we could have spent so much and on what? There doesn’t seem to be anything to show for it now?  Even worse, how do we stretch our money to go further than it can possibly can?  These are hard questions that hurt pretty bad when we have to face them.

Do you think that’s what whoever first said, “Another day, another dollar”, meant?  I think that if Lexi wasn’t just a year old in this picture, she might have been having one of those days.

April 7, 2010 at 5:00 am Leave a comment


It’s been a little over three years since Lexi’s brother Tyler was born.  He’s 14 months younger than she.  I had no idea that I would experience the degree of love for them that I have. I’ve watched them make it through her jealousy after he was born, which didn’t last long at all, his colic – which did, the terrible two’s and now that he’s three and she’s four, they’re more like twins, even if a slight stretch of the Irish kind. 

For me, one of the best things is watching just how much they care about each other.  She said a few weeks ago, ” Tyler’s my best friend forever”.  He rushes to her rescue whenever he has the chance.  Even though he’s younger, he is showing a protective big brotherlyness.  She eats it up and lavishes him with her feminine ways.  It’s pretty common for her to show him what to do… and he does.  He was only a little over a year old when she took him on a pretend shopping spree through their house, while dutifully holding his hand as she dragged him around….and he went.  I don’t know how much he loved it, but he kept quiet. 

If he hears her cry, he rushes to her rescue and if another kid should lay a hand on her, they better watch out because it seems to raise his testosterone level to aggressive.  He likes to make things better, too. One night when they stayed overnight, she was acting like a little princess and wanted me to bring her juice, which was on the table 3 feet away,  over to her.  I was busy and wanted her to get it, which she stubbornly refused to do.  After several unfruitful back and forth volley’s of “no, you get it” and “no, you get it”, Tyler looked first at her, then at me and he got up and got it. 

This ringside seat is priceless and it gives their parents, me, their other grandparents and relatives, an endless supply of laughter, frustration, tears, joy,  discovery, surprise, anger, love, even more love and I pray, many, many more years to come.

April 5, 2010 at 6:00 am Leave a comment


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